Currently at work. One hour left. What would I do without Netflix? It helps time pass so much faster. I am now into the UK's Skins. I haven't watched the US show..maybe that will be next. Well, I just wanted to write a little something, and now I am gonna get back to my show : ]
So, I am kinda ecstatic. Next Tuesday is a day without shoes. It is April 5th. This day is encouraged by Toms Shoes. They are a one for one company. For every pair of shoes that is purchased from them, they will give a pair to a child in need somewhere else in the world. This company is a great company. They are working to be as green as possible, and they have a heart for helping people in serious need. On April 5th, you are supposed to not where shoes so you can bring awareness to the many children who have no choice, but to not where shoes. I seriously want to do more. Companies like this and Charity: Water and even To Write Love On Her Arms are all seeking opportunities to help people. With Toms it is giving shoes. With Charity: Water, it is building wells in Ethiopia, and TWLOHA is to help depressed people realize they have something to live for, and to help them get the help they need. The world is so big, and there are so many people who have needs. I want to help. Think about it. I am given money for things I don't need all the time. Giving $40 to help provide a sustainable water source for people in Ethiopia is a much better use of my money than going to the movies a couple of times, or buying clothes I don't need. Buying a pair of shoes from Toms, or a shirt from TWLOHA would be better than buying some heels from forever 21. These companies are helping people. I want to be a part of that. I am going to start by joining thousands of people not wearing shoes on April 5th. After that, who knows? I have a few ideas in my head... I am thinking about making my budget include a special percentage of my paychecks to go to companies like Toms, Charity: Water, and To Write Love On Her Arms. After that, I'm even thinking about my next birthday. Birthday you ask? Isn't that a bit selfish? But what I am thinking is I will ask everybody who is planning on giving me a gift to give me money instead. That way I can put it towards helping people in need. Like I said before, I want to be part of the change in the world. And, I want to start now.
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, mp3 player etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the song name down.
IF SOMEONE ASKS ‘ARE YOU OKAY?’ YOU SAY?
Don't you want me?
-Glee
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Backstabber
-Ke$ha
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Permanent December
-Miley Cyrus
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Peg O' My Heart
-Dropkick Murphys
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
I'm Not Calling You A Liar
-Florence + The Machine
WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Control
-Bernhoft
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Just To See You Smile
-Tim McGraw
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Oh My Stars
-Andrew Belles
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Nothing Like This
-Rascal Flatts
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Going Out In Style
-Dropkick Murphys
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Smoke
-Ben Folds Five
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Shut Out The Lights
-Keith Urban
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Tangled
-Maroon 5
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Caught Up In You
-We The Kings
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
F*** You
-Cee Lo Green
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Catch All The Fish
-Brad Paisley
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Love 2012
-3OH!3
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Dog Days Are Over
-Florence + The Machine
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Welcome To The Future
-Brad Paisley
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW
Last One Standing
-Example
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Static Waves
-Andrew Belles
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Those You've Known
-Spring Awakening
I love the feeling I get after I read a good book. It is a feeling I can't quite find anywhere else, from anything else. It is very distinct. There is a ride a good book can take you on. There are undeniable highs, and unfathomable lows. I connect to the characters. I feel for the characters. I am not a person who needs to get some big meaning out of every book. I do not need to analyze it past the point of enjoyment, and dissect every sentence. I just enjoy. I love to take the book for what it is on the surface....a story. Of course there are books that really make an impact, and change my way of thinking, but even those, there wasn't much of analyzing the books...it was more analyze my feelings towards the books. I like fictional books. I like happily ever afters. It allows me to escape from reality for a while and just get lost in the magic of a good story. I love the solace, the calm, the pastoral feeling that engulfs me. It is peace in a world that is often not peaceful. It is an offering of hope.
I am realizing how much I want to travel; how much I want to explore. I want to live in a new place. I want to meet new people. I want to learn. There is so much of the world that most of us never get to explore. I don't just want to visit, I want to live. There is so much my mind and heart are urging me to discover.
I have this urge to write, to express myself, to create, but I am at a loss as of what to say. I am listening to "She Could Be You," on repeat, and this song just takes me to a place where I am totally relaxed and happy. It is a really beautiful song. It makes me forget about, wait, scratch that. It makes me not care about the bad stuff I am dealing with. Maybe what will be created int he session of artistic outbreak will be a new way of thinking; a new way of living my life. The current way doesn't seem to be working to well, and quite recently, I have been trying out some new things. I think they might fit out just right. : ]
I am going to graduate soon. I will be thrown into the real world with just my family as a cushion. Even that will diminish slightly. I am tired of high school drama. I am tired of trivial matters being the things that consume my life. Life is short. I want to fill mine with love, laughter, and adventure. I want to face all my fears and do things I never expected I would do. I want to challenge myself and those around me. I don't want to live for the people around me anymore.
People around me, I allow them to consume my life. I care too much, I care too little, they don't think I am good enough, I don't think I am good enough for them. Done. no more. People say cliche things about people entering and leaving your life, and although over used, I think there might be something there. Looking back at my friendships, many of them only lasted for about a year. I am thinking, maybe I was just supposed to learn something, or grow from them in some way, and then move on. Instead of dwelling on the pain of losing a friend, I think I will focus on the lessons learned and move forward. No being upset, no crying, no being hurt. The friends served their purpose at the time. Now, it is time to move forward and find someone new I can learn from. Isn't that a pillar in life anyways? To learn? I think it is, and I have plenty to learn. : ]
[She Could Be You]
"I'm haunted by this photograph
Don't know why
Everytime I look, I get shivers down my spine
You're such a beautiful face
I know those eyes
They take me back in time
She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you
I wish that i could tell you
What you don't know
I dream about that day
But it's impossible
In another world,
I'll be yours tonight
But i can't break free from this life
She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you
I see it all the time
I know it's true
A picture doesn't lie
She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you
I think I am a jerk magnet. Where are all the nice guys?...nice people in general. I am tired of being used and then thrown out like the trash. Why is it not enough to be friends with me? Sheesh. Special note for the jerk of the month.
Dear Jerk,
I was straight with you from the beginning. Did you think you could change my mind? Well guess what...you didn't. Now I know you were just a jerk like half the guys in the world. You said I was a really good friend, but apparently not... Apparently that was just a line, because as soon as I made it exceptionally clear that that was all we are, you bolted. Whatever. My opinion of you was totally diminished. One day you will want my trust back...Good luck trying to get it.
Sincerely,
the person who was your friend when everyone else was gone.
