I know those eyes; they take me back in time .

She Could Be You

-Shawn Hlookoff

             I have this urge to write, to express myself, to create, but I am at a loss as of what to say. I am listening to "She Could Be You," on repeat, and this song just takes me to a place where I am totally relaxed and happy. It is a really beautiful song. It makes me forget about, wait, scratch that. It makes me not care about the bad stuff I am dealing with. Maybe what will be created int he session of artistic outbreak will be a new way of thinking; a new way of living my life. The current way doesn't seem to be working to well, and quite recently, I have been trying out some new things. I think they might fit out just right. : ] 

           I am going to graduate soon. I will be thrown into the real world with just my family as a cushion. Even that will diminish slightly. I am tired of high school drama. I am tired of trivial matters being the things that consume my life. Life is short. I want to fill mine with love, laughter, and adventure. I want to face all my fears and do things I never expected I would do. I want to challenge myself and those around me. I don't want to live for the people around me anymore.

           People around me, I allow them to consume my life. I care too much, I care too little, they don't think I am good enough, I don't think I am good enough for them. Done. no more. People say cliche things about people entering and leaving your life, and although over used, I think there might be something there. Looking back at my friendships, many of them only lasted for about a year. I am thinking, maybe I was just supposed to learn something, or grow from them in some way, and then move on. Instead of dwelling on  the pain of losing a friend, I think I will focus on the lessons learned and move forward. No being upset, no crying, no being hurt. The friends served their purpose at the time. Now, it is time to move forward and find someone new I can learn from. Isn't that a pillar in life anyways? To learn? I think it is, and I have plenty to learn. : ]

[She Could Be You]

"I'm haunted by this photograph
Don't know why
Everytime I look, I get shivers down my spine
You're such a beautiful face
I know those eyes
They take me back in time

She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you
I wish that i could tell you
What you don't know
I dream about that day
But it's impossible
In another world,
I'll be yours tonight
But i can't break free from this life

She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you

I see it all the time
I know it's true
A picture doesn't lie

She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you

She could be you
She could be you"